Grief is love. It is just love that you can no longer give to a place where you so desperately want it to go. Grief is all of that unspent love that ends up gathering in the corners of your eyes, which ends up spilling onto your cheeks at a moments notice. Grief is a map that led you to a destination you didn't want to go to. Grief is a silence you never realized could shout. Grief is the presence of an absence you could never have imagined you would miss. Yet grief is also t

My appetite hasn't been great as of late. A few days back I found chicken kievs at the grocery store, I nearly lost my shit. I haven't been able to find it in years. My mom would make them as a treat. I bought almost every box. As my kids were trick or treating I figured I treat myself in an empty house. I made rice and that delicacy of chicken. Once it was ready I was so excited. The minute I took it out of the oven it fell on the floor spilling out all of that flavored butt

When we are born, we are innocent, and filled with it; purity. It is through the many human conditions we endure that can and often times does steal it away. Birth, Death, Sickness, Relationships. I have lost faith in a lot of different ways, but I also am trying NOT to lose it at the same time. Talk about juxtaposition. I have realized that happiness can show itself as tears of joy and also tears of sorrow. God have I found out these past few years through of all the above s

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So I caved. I said once he left I would never see him again. We both agreed to it in fact. Lie. I like to tell myself a lot of them, and...

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It had become too much. With the kids, their activities, and their commitments; and me being their sole chauffeur, and his, I had to end...