Straight up, this is for my kids.
If you want to borrow it for yours, that is up to you...
I am beginning to realize everything I write, or share is pretty much for them.
Kind of my online legacy if you will...
Anyways...
How do we know we are making the right decisions in life?
Simply put?
We don't.
We all would like to think we are doing the right things in parenthood, or at least I would hope so.
I would like to think we are all out there being our best selves and trying our damnedest, even when we fail miserably.
I hope we all know that our parenting is not always going to look normal to others but actually may be.
We must understand that as long as we aren't acting on mal intent, it's going to be fine, no matter the judgement cast at/on us.
To my kids, please remember that people will fall in to your story just as fast as they will fall away.
As hard as that may be, don't let it break you, let it birth you.
Let these experiences give you life, not death.
Let your mistakes serve as lessons and not as lesions.
Let these scars be a badge and not a burden.
Don't let the judgement of others cloud or distract you from YOUR journey and/or water down your purpose or personality.
You will be too much for some, but just know, those aren't your true people.
Blood is almost always thicker than water, so stick with your family.
I, as your mother, will ALWAYS have your best interest at heart.
Even when you doubt it, or me.
Especially when my execution is not exactly how I planned it.
I love you all more than you will ever know.
But perfection in execution is something in many of my degrees that I never majored in.
One day I will be gone and that will be that day that it will become painfully obvious what I tried to do on earth.
But thus is life.
No one appreciates what we had/have until it is gone.
(Trust me, I learned the hard way on this one.)
But that is one of life's many learning lessons, it has a curve no one sees; or wants to handle.
(And for good reason).
However, it is one that affords us to value what we were given; but also serves to remind us of what to be thankful for.
So on that note, I will earnestly try and share with you the hopes that you will go higher and further; and burn brighter than I ever did, or could.
I want the best for you, and that may mean that you will see me at my worst to make sure you that YOU are the best best version of you that I can curate.
Let me explain, this means I will embark on endless corrections, a lot of pushing, some anger, all the while enduring multiple adjustments.
But please know I do these things because I want you loved by the world in the long term.
Even if you hate me in the interim.
Which, by the way, I own this parenting role openly; because I will never stop weighing in, watching or coaching.
But also know I will do said roles whilst cajoling you and smothering you with kisses, sorry I can't help myself.
You three have gifted me the best title yet.
And that is one that is named, MOM.
I cant thank you enough.
I am one lucky gal.
I also can't help but to tell you how dumb and gross you look chewing with your mouth open right after I cheered my ass off for for you for 3 hours at your track meet.
Motherhood is crazy like that.
I now understand mental disorders; thank you kids.
But please know you 3 are, and always will be, my precious 3.
So please forgive my lectures, lessons,and rants.
But for the love of God, know they are out of LOVE.
And remind yourselves even when I may deliver my messages in a voice of anger, my heart is in the right place.
And that comes from a place wanting you to know about adaption, admittance of your wrongs, adoration of what is right, acceptance of who you are and admiration of those who deserve it.
I want you to understand that you need to be flexible in order to adapt; and sometimes that comes in the form of yelling and sarcasm.
My bad.
Any who...
I love all 3 of you, forever, always, and with all of my heart.
(No matter what my mouth says...wink wink)
Xoxo,
M.
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